It has become clear that I am still in love with a look. A look you used to give me. I am in love with an idea of something that doesn't exist anymore.

Today you've shown me just how little you care about me and how much you depend on me. I have always known and joked about how If I'm not at home or not doing my usual stuff, you don't eat. For an entire week you have been sick in bed, in your usual spoiled demeanor, a...

I want to write about the year we don't talk about. It's more important than the credit we give it. I think that year full of uncontrolled insanity is the basis of all our disembowelment. Once in a while I go back in my emails and read the messages we used to send each...

The longest we ever spent in one place, specifically one house was 7 years and we did that together. We have both been nomads of the world, moving from one place to the other according to what life threw at us. We came together out of chance in the same place accross t...

I like it when you grow your beard and your hair is long. My fingers can can mingle with the curls while I give you head massages to help you get to sleep. Its the closest I can get to you with the three year old between us taking all our space. We've slept on separate...

You used to  say that I was exempt from all the mean things you did and said to people. The death cursing 

under your breath geared at someone that didnt unders...

When you told them that you liked me they told you I was an easy lay. They were right, but I didn't make it too easy for you. You watched how I made it really easy for others, and then asking my staff to go look for me and demand that I make your martinis or your teas,...

I didnt stop to realize

about the school calendar

I assumed it was how I was used to

March to December 

I was just getting used to the free hours

the eating breakfast alone 

the writing without distractions

being able to shower etc

And now for an entire month

we´re back 

to ea...

Words have come and gone

Questions left unanswered

Left at the roadside

Forgotten

Days pass and words

Words are spit out

From you to me

And from me to you

Is there a way back

Is there a way forward

What are 13 years worth 

I was at work

but not working

the usual, just waiting.

My smoking buddy guys 

they were there, looking young.

Without beards.

But we were not smoking

we were just being.

Someone ate something 

gross

And I threw up.

I´ve never thrown up in a dream before

My mouth felt

like when...