The distractions

The feeling of just wanting to stare off into the distance doesn´t let me enjoy my kids. I am constantly wanting them to stop screaming, or stop whining, or stop fighting with each other. It gets really bad when I want them to stop having fun because according to me, they are being annoying.

This is wrong on so many levels and I´m having a really hard time changing it. It´s because it feels like I don´t let them be happy because I just want to be left alone so that feels like they never listen to me, or never do what I ask or stop doing what they shouldn´t be doing.

They already know how to make me angry, or annoyed. They are great at bothering each other. They copy what I say to them, to each other.

So I´m hearing a lot of "shut ups" and "im mad at you". But seriously why when you tell them to NOT mess with the water dispenser do they do just that five seconds later????